A week ago, we asked a member of our private insomnia help community to keep a sleep diary for a week so that we could share the challenges insomnia sufferers have to deal with. We include it below.
To all insomniacs: let this remind you that you are not alone. To others, hopefully this gives you an idea of just how difficult living with insomnia can be.
Monday, 20 June 2011
Less than 4 hours sleep and I'm awake with a pounding headache laying in bed wondering if I'm going to get a decent night of sleep soon. This is partly due to family stress at the moment..
Got an extra hour sleep in the morning, good job I don't work really!
Been feeling rather bleh all day as quite tired, not really talked much to anyone.
Have a brain like Swiss cheese, meant to send this before I went to bed, which was an hour or so ago, just woken up and realised, so I've sent this at 11.42pm and hope to go back to sleep...
Tuesday, 21 June 2011
"Woke up" at 7.51am... I put it like that as I was awake every hour or so which was frustrating to say the least, and not exactly the greatest start to the day.
When I was trying to sleep I tried listening to music as that usually works, but not this time..
The one thing I hate about not being able to sleep is that my paranoia gets ramped up a notch. I was on the bus to the hospital and it felt like everyone was staring at me, whispering and making judgements... the daft thing is, I know they are not... but they are, I can feel it.
Almost missed my turn for blood test, I was dozing in the chair when the nurse yelled out my number, I missed it over the PA system!
It appears yesterday that I had snubbed a friend who needed me yesterday. I'm gutted, I wouldn't do this to anyone deliberately (a few family numbers aside) and especially not to this friend in particular. I just hope they can forgive me.
Wednesday, 22 June 2011
I slept for about 4 hours in total on and off...
Feel so tired right now, eyes are sore, head throbbing too... I feel miserable and I have to interact with the world as need to go to the post office.
I snapped at the lady working in the post office counter, I didn't mean to, but it just felt like I was being treated as stupid and it angered/annoyed me... usually I'd just take whatever is said on the chin.. but this really got to me. This wasn't the only place I snapped either, I got really annoyed with the pharmacy as they forgot to give me very important tablets for my heart... and I pretty much got the response that it wasn't their problem... well no, it was obviously mine. I have to get in touch with the dispensary tomorrow to sort this out... I just hope I don't lose my temper... I don't really want to be arrested, but there again if I get some decent sleep I should be ok.
It's 8.27pm and I'm kinda nodding off as I'm typing this... kinda having micronaps where I kinda nod off for a minute or 2, although I feel like I have closed and opened my eyes.. think I may try an early night tonight with some music on my stereo and see if that relaxes me.
Thursday, 23 June 2011
Broken sleep yet again but at least it was 3-4 hours in a block and then and hour or so... not really my idea of fun to say the least... the title of the Green Day song "Boulevard Of Broken Dreams" springs to mind and seems quite fitting.
Speaking of dreams had a very odd one last night...I dreamt about rapid weightloss, so damn rapid I was nothing but bones!
Friday, 24 June 2011 - Saturday, 25 June 2011
I had been up Friday until jut gone 2am watching movies, not really feeling tired as usual...but when I lay in bed I felt drained... I got about 4-5 hours sleep, and kinda felt good on it (although I've certainly felt better!)
I saw something out the corner of my eye today that wasn't there.... out of the corner of my eye I saw a large spider, but when I looked around there was nothing there! and it couldn't have hidden as it was a white wall I was looking at! Is it possible to "dream" while you are awake as to speak?
Yesterday was interesting, dozing off at the bus stop! Good job I was waiting for a friend before I got the bus as I would have missed it twice! Also, in HMV I felt like I was dead on my feet, almost like I was kinda on autopilot as to speak.
You know, I'd probably sleep better if there was less stress in my life right now... but I'm not going onto sleeping tablets, I have enough issues with medications as it is... and also got close to being hooked on sleepers as a teen when I had serious problems sleeping and also suffered slight depression.
You know, I'd kill for a decent 7-8 hours sleep right now...
Sunday, 26 June 2011
The heat certainly does not help when you are having problems sleeping!! I think I got about 2 hours sleep total which made me feel like Hell, and I'm not feeling exactly brilliant.
Had to go into town today, so hopped onto the bus, and fell asleep on it! Good job my stop was the end of the line, otherwise who knows where I would have gone to!!
Concentration is not too great today, wasn't able to concentrate on the movie I was watching which was frustrating. I had to turn it off about 30 minutes in.[Thanks, Yam]
Last updated: June 27, 2011